Alexis decided to go for a ride...

One of my worst nightmares came true today. Not that I want to remember this day.. but I do want to make sure I write down my feelings and things for Journal purposes.

Alexis and I got home from Elko this morning.. and I've been busy cleaning the house.. going grocery shopping, and then I started to mow the lawn. Alexis always comes outside with me.. and will play on her swing set or ride her bike while I mow the lawn. Usually I close the garage after I get the lawn mower out so that Alexis won't go in and out of the house or play in the car. (which for some reason she has been wanting to do.) Well I didn't close the garage today.. and my biggest mistake was that I didn't put the parking brake on in the car... or make sure it was locked.
I started mowing the lawn and just kept checking on Alexis every couple of minutes. She was riding her bike around.. so I kept on going. Not even 2 minutes later from the corner of my eye.. I see my car rolling down the driveway. YES, rolling away without ME in it. I started screaming and just running towards the car. Grandpa Carter was standing in his yard and all I could yell out was "Grandpa, she is in the car." The worst thing ever was Alexis' face. She was so scared. I was so helpless and for what seemed like forever.. all I could really do was watch my car with my little girl in it rolling away. It was actually only a few seconds... because luckily the car hit Grandpa Carters fence on the side of his house and stopped. I just grabbed Alexis out of the car and she kept saying "Mommy, I'm so sorry." HOLY CRAP... my heart seriously stopped beating for those few seconds. I couldn't believe what had just happened. After calling the insurance company to make sure that Grandpa Carters fence would be paid for.. and just breathing.. I started thinking of all the things Alexis could have hit.. and that she just so happened to miss. For one Jonathon's truck is parked right on the side of where the car started rolling.. also Grandpa Carters truck was right in the way. I thought for sure the car wasn't going to stop until she hit someones house. I'm so very thankful that the car came to a stop quickly.. otherwise I probably would've passed out from panicking. Anyways I would never ever wish that feeling upon any parent. I've never been more scared in my life.. and I feel like the worst parent in the whole world. I can't believe she was able to get in the car without me knowing it and put the car in neutral. NEVER EVER again will I leave my vehicle unlocked or not put the parking brake on. I'm so thankful that my little girl is safe and that the only thing she was worried about.. was that I was so upset...

So our insurance will cover the property damages.. which is good... But Jonathon's dad is Great and he actually fixed the fence. It doesn't even look like anything happened to it. The only other damage was Grandpa and Grandma Carter's tree and a little wagon. I thought that the car would be destroyed.. but there isn't anything wrong other then the license plate has a little dent. You seriously wouldn't be able to tell that anything happened.. but I will always remember this day.. and the feeling that I had when I saw my baby girl rolling away from me. I know I would've stepped in front of the vehicle before it kept going.. but then I probably would be in the hospital. My adrenaline definitely kicked in and I would've done whatever it took to get my baby out of there.. I am just so thankful that nobody got hurt. I really do feel like the worst parent ever :(
But I know this will just help me remember to never take my eyes of of her for even one second. No matter how big she gets. All I can do is say Thank heavens.