Monday, January 31, 2011

Why can't it be more simple?

I went and saw Dr. Black here in Monticello today for my weekly appointment. Baby is measuring right on and heartbeat was 143. I talked to him for about a half hour about what I've been thinking and about meeting with Dr. Willis. He listened to me and was very understanding about what I had to say. I then asked him what he would do if he was in my place or if his wife was in my situation. He said that he thinks the best plan is to wait till next Monday to see if I'm dilating, or if anything has changed. If I am dilating or anything he said he'd give it another week to see if I can get to a 10 on a bishop's scale. He then said if by next Monday I'm not dilating or nothing has changed that he would just go with the scheduled c-section on the 9th. I feel like that might just be what I have to do.
The main reason being is that I'm am seriously stressing myself out so much with all the different thoughts and different outcomes that could happen. It is driving me crazy. So this is what I am thinking.. (I'll probably end up changing my mind again.) But as of today when Dr. Black checked me.. nothing had changed from when Dr. Willis checked me on Friday. So I'm going to try and be patient until next Monday and when I go see Dr. Black he will check me again. If my body hasn't started doing anything at all.. I'm going to probably give in and just have the scheduled c-section on Wednesday Feb. 9th. I really want to meet my baby girl.. I want to be able to sleep again, and walk normal again.

If by some miracle... or if it is meant to be and I do start dilating or showing some sort of progress.. I am going to give my body another week to see if I can get to where I need to be to have Dr. Willis induce me up north. I will probably go up there and stay so that I can have Dr. Willis keep checking me every couple of days. And then we'll just hope and pray that the VBAC will be successful. I kind of hate that it is all just going to be up to what my body does in the next week.. but if I don't make some sort of decision I'm going to drive myself crazy.

I know that everyone will have their own opinions, but I trust Dr. Black's opinion and I also trust what Dr. Willis has told me in the past. One of the things that really made me nervous about having another c-section is that some Dr.'s will tell you, you can only have like 3 kids if you have all c-sections. Dr. Willis has told me not to worry about that, and that he has had several patients that have had several c-sections. I guess you never really know what is going to happen in the future. And maybe I will only be able to have a certain amount of kids... but I just have to leave it in the Lords hands.. and be grateful for the children I am blessed with.
Right now I am really really wishing that we didn't live in Monticello. I hate that this hospital will not allow you to try a VBAC. I wouldn't need to make this decision if this dumb hospital would just allow it. It is very frustrating. But I can't change that.. no matter how much I wish I could.

I really don't know how much longer I can be pregnant. I have been very grouchy and snappy. I feel bad for Jonathon. I don't mean to be, but I'm just tired and emotional. If I walk for even 5 minutes my back hurts so bad. I hate hate complaining because I would never in a million years take away anything about this pregnancy. I think I am just so anxious and excited to finally meet Kinleigh. I know that Alexis wants to hold her sister so badly.. and I think that has a lot to do with my emotions. Even though I am complaining I am so so thankful and I feel so very blessed that we will get to welcome a new angel baby sometime soon! I am so excited to see what she looks like. I wonder if she will look like Alexis.. or if she'll look completely different. I'm assuming she will look like Lexi :)
Our little family is so blessed to have wonderful people in our lives.. and also have each other. I'm very thankful for my husband. He is amazing.. and so so good with Alexis. I can't wait to see him hold our new little one. The other night when I was up north and Jonathon was down here with Alexis, she got a really high fever. At one time he said it was about 102-103. VERY SCARY. He stayed awake all night just to watch her sleep and make sure she was okay. He's always been the calm, collective one when Alexis gets sick. He can use his brain.. and think about what is going to help. I just get really worried. I'm very lucky to have both Jonathon and Alexis in my life. I can't even imagine life without them. I hope that Jonathon can handle my grouchy, snappy self for a little bit longer. LOL

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Dr. Willis says...

Well I met with Dr. Willis yesterday. He said that American Fork Hospital will allow him to induce me, but only when I am rated a 10 on the bishop's scale. He also said I would need to be at least 3 cm. dilated. As of yesterday I wasn't anything.. I'm not dilated at all or anything like that :( So he said that I can continue to see Dr. Black in Monticello (so that I don't have to stay up north without Jonathon) and just have him check me a couple times next week to see if anything is happening. Dr. Willis said as soon as Dr. Black rates me a 10 on the bishop's scale to call him and we will set up an induction date at American Fork Hospital. Then if by Feb. 9th (the date of my scheduled c-section) comes and I'm still not making progress I will either just have the c-section or I will continue to wait to see if my body will start doing anything. I will probably then go up north and stay with Kelly and Dr. Willis will check me every couple of days until I'm progressing enough to induce me.
I really hope I can be patient enough because I really do want to try a VBAC. I also hope that when I'm in Monticello I don't go into labor and then have to just have a c-section anyways. I do hope that I will start dilating or doing something in the next couple of weeks so that I can go up north and try a VBAC. It is basically all up to my body.. and I'm just going to leave it in the Lords hands.
So I will talk to Dr. Black on Monday and see if he is even willing to check me a couple of times next week.. or if he'd rather I just stick with the first plan and have a scheduled c-section. If that is the case I may just have to go up north and stay and see Dr. Willis until my body decides to start doing something. So we'll probably have to play the waiting game and hope that something happens to where I will be able to head up north and have a induction date set.

My mom and I went to the South Towne Mall today with Ami and Sam and they went to that Fetal Studio where they will tell you what you are having. The Ultrasound Tech said he is 200% sure it is a girl! So we'll have more girls in this family :) I'm excited for Ami and Sam!

Jonathon decided that he didn't want to drive the 4 hours up north with us.. so he and Alexis stayed home. They've been having a daddy, daughter weekend :) Alexis called me today.. and said "Mom, Dad isn't watching me." I was like oh yeah what is he doing? She says "He is watching basketball and I don't want to watch it." Then I hear Jonathon in the background say "Did you really call your mom?" He was laughing so hard, and he couldn't believe that she called me and told on him. Ha Ha. She is hilarious. Anyways she said that she is having a good time with her dad. Derek and I will be driving back to Monticello tomorrow, and my mom is going to Elko to visit my Dad for a few days.

I wish that Kinleigh would just decide to come tonight. Sam and Ami are up north visiting his mom, My dad is up here in Salt Lake for meetings.. and of course Derek, my mom, and I are up here.. so Jonathon and Lexi would just have to drive up. Of course things don't ever happen when it would be simple.. LOL

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I just can't seem to make up my mind....

So we went up to the hospital today with Ami to see if we could find out what she is having. The doctor tried for a while to get the baby to cooperate but he/she just kept moving around. We never got a real good look. He said that he is 75% sure it is a girl.. only because he couldn't see any boy parts. Ami was bummed because they really want a boy. But she is going back in two weeks to get the "main" ultrasound where they look at everything really good and measure everything. Hopefully they'll be able to tell at that time. We also stopped in Jackies room and saw her little baby boy! He is so so so stinken cute.. and tiny :)
While I was up there talking to Jackie about the c-section and everything.. I just started to think about how much I DO NOT want to have a c-section if I don't have to. So of course my mind started racing again.. and I couldn't stop thinking about different options. My mom is going to go up north tomorrow to visit my dad, and I was thinking that I could catch a ride up and meet with Dr. Willis one more time to see what he thinks about trying a VBAC. His office said they couldn't get me in to see Dr. Willis till Tuesday.. so I was going to just stay up north for a couple of days. But I have Dr. Willis cell phone number in my phone and texted him to ask if I could ask a question. He called me right away.. and we talked about what I should do. He said that if I want to try a VBAC he would totally be on board. The only problem is, is that the hospital may have a policy in place that says you can't be induced if trying to have a VBAC, because it makes it a little more dangerous. He said that he'd call the hospital to see what he could find out. He also said that I can call him as soon as I get up there tomorrow (even though he doesn't work on Fridays) and he'll come see me to check on things and just talk to me more about it.
So these are my options I believe
1.) Have my scheduled c-section down here in Monticello on Feb. 9 (Yes, I moved it up because I am impatient.)
2.) I start seeing Dr. Willis (my doc up north) every week from here on out and he'll check me everytime to see if I'm dilating or anything. He'll check with American Fork Hospital to see if they will allow me to be induced since I want to have a VBAC. I would only get induced so that Jonathon could take work off and we'd know when to be up there and all that.
3.) I see Dr. Willis every week and hope that little Kinleigh doesn't decide to come while I'm down here in Monticello. Because then I'll just have to have a c-section. Then if American Fork Hospital says I have to go into labor on my own and then I can try a VBAC, I will need to just stay up north (without Jonathon, because he can't miss work for weeks at a time) for the last couple of weeks, go into labor naturally (hopefully the baby doesn't decide to wait too long) and call Jonathon when I go into labor, pray that he makes it up there in time, and also pray that after all this work I have a successful VBAC.

Hopefully I'll know a little more after I talk to Dr. Willis tomorrow. Plus I'll need to check with my little sister to see if she'd mind me staying with her if I had to for a little bit.

My ideal situation would be that American Fork Hospital will allow Dr. Willis to induce me on a certain date.. and that the baby will wait till then, then I have a successful VBAC with my husband and family there :)

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I can't take it anymore...

Okay.. I don't know how much longer I can do this pregnant thing. I seriously slept about 20 minutes total last night. I am so uncomfortable.. I have to pee like every 20 mins. and I can't stop thinking about how the c-section will go, and getting to FINALLY hold my baby. I know I sound like a huge baby.. and I will admit that I am being a huge baby.. But I can't take it anymore. I want my baby girl to be here so badly. So I think I am going to talk to Dr. Black on Monday and see if we can move it up to either Feb. 8 or Feb. 9. Feb. 8th was the first day that Dr. Black would consider doing it, because I'll be 39 weeks. But Jonathon talked me into waiting till the 11th. As it gets closer I really don't think I can wait till then. Jonathon keeps telling me it doesn't make much sense because he'll have to miss like 3 days of work.. instead of us just waiting till the weekend... and I agree.. But he isn't the one that is miserable. So I guess we'll see in the next few days what we decide to do. And I know everyone would probably say that from Tuesday to Friday isn't much of a wait.. But those that say that have probably never been 9 months pregnant. LOL. Anyways I feel gigantic, and I just want to be done. I wish I wasn't so anxious... and that I could just relax and enjoy the quiet time for the next couple of weeks, but it is getting so hard.
I talked to Jackie this morning and she is going in to have her c-section done today at 2:00 pm. because of some scheduling issues the hospital was having. She is SO lucky. And I guess Ami's appt. is tomorrow at 2:00. Hopefully her little baby will cooperate so we can know what she is having. I personally think it is a girl.. But I am always wrong.. I guess we'll know soon.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Some info...

So my sweet sister Kelly.. that is way smarter than me when it comes to making her own headers and things like that for the blog was nice enough to make me a page that isn't private, so people can see when I update. The only bad part about being private is that you can't tell when people update.. so I think people tend to forget to check the blog. So anyway the address for that is jonandaud.blogspot.com. So if you replace my other blog address with this new one, you'll be able to tell when I update. Then whenever I post something new on my private blog.. I will just put it on the new one as well.. and you'll be able to get to my private one from there. Just some info.. for those of you that still follow our blog :) Thanks!

37 weeks!

These were taken yesterday. I am now 37 weeks as of today :) I feel gigantic... and my face looks huge in these pictures, but hey I don't really care what I look like.. I'm just so excited to meet my baby girl!


Monday, January 24, 2011

1 doctor appt. down.. 2 more to go...

I went and saw the Doctor again today. Babies heartbeat was a strong 144 :) I thought that he would check me today.. but he said that with scheduled c-sections there isn't really a reason to check to see if your dilating or anything unless you are having contractions. I thought that was a little weird, but I guess he knows what he is doing. I then had to talk to a nurse and go over a few things. Next week we will meet with the anesthesiologist and have him/her go over how everything will work when I go in for my c-section. I will see the doctor two more times.. before I go in for my c-section. Jonathon couldn't believe that it had already been a week since we'd seen the doctor last. Although to me it seems like we have forever to go.. It really is flying by. I did have a little bit of blood in my urine the doctor said.. so he gave me a prescription just in case it is some sort of infection. I'm getting so excited, but nervous for the whole surgery part of it. Ami is going to the doctor on Thursday and will hopefully find out what she is having! I'm very excited for that as well :) Yay so many exciting things!!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

20 days to go....

I just wanted to hurry and post that we have only 20 days to go!!! Part of me really wants her to come early :) I'm just so anxious. Jonathon is starting to really get anxious too! He said he's been thinking about the baby constantly while he is at work. When I told him today that we still have 20 days, he seemed a little bummed that we still have that long. He said he just wants to hold her and cuddle with her :) I can't believe that Jackie is going to have her c-section this coming Thursday. I'll see that doctor again on Monday. I wonder if he'll check me this time to see if anything is happening. I guess we'll see.

Last night my mom, Alexis, and I went over to Ami's just to visit.. and a commercial for pizza came on. Ami said she really felt like pizza, so we decided to drive over to Cortez at 7:00 pm. last night and ate at Pizza Hut! We took Sorcia, Izzy, and Alexis with us. It was a fun quick trip.. and it was nice to get out of the house :) We laughed a lot, and just had a good time!!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

36 Weeks :)

As of today I am 36 weeks! I saw Dr. Black yesterday and the babies heartbeat was 133. He said everything looks good.. and that next week when I go in I'll pre-register at the hospital and stuff. I gained 2 more pounds.. so the total now is 37 lbs. Alexis and I have also been coughing for a couple of weeks so the Dr. prescribed some antibiotics. I definitely don't want either of us to be sick when the baby does come.

This past weekend we decided we'd make a quick trip up north so that Jonathon and Chad could do their January Pest Control services. We left Thursday night after Jonathon got off of work. We stayed with Chad and Kelly this time, and got to spend some time with Nicole! She is getting so big.. and she is so stinken cute! We had a lot of fun up there :) On Friday Kelly and I made dinner and we had Keri and Adam come over for dinner. Adam is a new guy that Keri is dating. We had a yummy dinner and then afterwards watched a movie. On Saturday Jonathon and I took Alexis over to his mom's house and we went out for Chris' B-day. We went and ate at Texas Roadhouse then went over to Chris' and Summer's for games. It was a lot of fun!

I'm getting so anxious for the baby to come... that sometimes it is hard for me to just sit and relax. I am definitely starting to do the nesting thing. I want to clean everything.. and just have everything ready. I made Jonathon put the babies swing together today! I can't wait to hold her :) Alexis keeps asking me when she is going to get here.. so I know that she is just as anxious as I am.

I am excited for Feb. 3rd to get here as well.. because Ami will hopefully find out what she is having. And today we also found out that Jonathon's cousin Sheleen is having another baby! So there will just be babies all over :)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Pictures from the game!

Well here are a few pictures from the BCS Championship game! Jonathon took like 64 pic's of their trip all together.. But the internet is being very slow.. and I don't have the patience to post anymore pics. I already spent the last hour and a half putting them on Jonathon's facebook for him. Anyways Jonathon had an awesome time, and I'm so glad he got to go!















Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Quick Update

I am now 35 weeks along! As it gets closer it seems like time is going by more slowly. I'm getting so dang anxious.. and just can't wait for Kinleigh to get here. I know I will miss my belly though.

Jonathon headed down to Arizona on Sunday afternoon with his good friend Clayton. They had a heck of a ride down there. When they were about 2 hours from their destination Clayton's car broke down. They had to wait about 2 hours for a tow truck to come get them. They later found out that it was the alternator that went out. So most of their weekend was spent getting Clayton's car fixed. They were supposed to take our car, but Clayton had to bring Kricket along.. and there was no way I was going to let the dog ride in our car. So anyways.. Jonathon was a little bummed that they missed almost all of the Tailgate parties and things going on, while waitng for Clay's car to get fixed. They made it to the game though and Jonathon said it was amazing! The Ducks ended up losing by a field goal :( I watched the whole game on t.v. and it was very exciting. Too bad they Ducks didn't win. Jonathon and Clayton are on their way home today.. and I hope Clay's car will make it this time. Jonathon said the weather was beautiful and I know that he had a blast at the game! He said he took lots of pictures of their trip.. so I'll post them when he gets home and I get around to it.

On a sad note... We gave Gibson and Jade away :( We've had those dogs for over a year.. and Jonathon loved them. About 2 weeks ago Jonathon mentioned that he was going to try and sell them, because he hated that they were outside all the time in this freezing weather.. and that he didn't get to play with them much, because of work and stuff. We had them in my Grandma Josies backyard.. and Jonathon tried to go over and see them as much as possible, but it has just been way to cold here. And then we started thinking about where they'd go when we move back up north and might have to rent somewhere. Most places will not allow dogs.. especially two big dogs. So we put them on KSL and got a lot of people that were interested in Gibson. Jonathon didn't want to separate the dogs though because they've never been apart. So we found a nice guy from Cortez that wanted both of them. I'm sure it was very hard for Jonathon to see them go. He really loved those dogs. I hope that someday soon we'll have a place of our own with a nice backyard that we can keep dogs in..

Alexis had school this morning and she seems to still be loving it!! I'm glad that it is something that she really enjoys going to :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

34 Weeks :)

Me at 33 weeks :)
Me at 32 weeks :)

As of today I am 34 weeks! I can't believe it :) It is getting so close.. and yet still feels so far away.. ha ha. I had a doc appt. yesterday and babies heartbeat was 158. Dr. says I measure perfectly and that everything looks great! I'll see him again in 2 weeks then every week up until my c-section. Jackie is exactly 2 weeks ahead of me.. and she has her c-section scheduled for Jan. 27. So our babies will be 2 weeks apart :) She is having another little boy and naming him Keaton. I'm excited for her baby to come, because then I'll only have 2 weeks left!!!
For journal purposes.. (and only for that reason) I have gained a total of 35 lbs. already :( Yes it seems like so much.. and I still have 5 weeks left. Every time I get weighed I get a little more depressed.. but it only lasts a second because I'm just too excited about my new baby girl! With Alexis I gained a total of 40 lbs. So I'm hoping I'll only gain around 5 more.. but that probably won't happen. I guess we'll see.

On another note.. my dad started his new job yesterday.. which requires him to travel and be gone 2 weeks at a time. Jonathon said that work just isn't the same without him. My dad is kind of giving this new job a trial run to see if he likes it.. and then he'll decide in a couple of weeks. I know Derek and my mom both hate that he is away for that long.. and it makes me sad too. It was nice getting to see him every day. So maybe he'll hate it and stick with being the boss out at the mine Jonathon is working at.
Jonathon has started his countdown to the day he gets to quit and start selling for his own company. He stays up late just thinking about it.. and is getting very anxious to get out there and sell as many accounts as possible. If everything goes as planned he'll be quitting this job at the end of April. It is scary and exciting all at the same time to think about. But with it being their own company I know that both Jonathon and Chad will do whatever it takes to be successful!
Jonathon is also getting very excited to travel to Phoenix on Sunday to attend the BCS game and watch his Ducks win (hopefully!) My dad isn't going to go anymore because of his new job.. so Jonathon invited Clayton. Clay will drive down on Sunday and then him and Jonathon will head to Arizona. I'm glad that Jonathon is getting the opportunity to go to this game! It has been fun to see his face light up every time someone asks him about it or when he talks about it!

Anyways.. I've been going over stuff in my head every night.. (when I should be sleeping) trying to make sure that I have everything I need for the baby. Today I washed some of Alexis' baby blankets :) I even found the old baby monitor that we used when Alexis was a baby. It still works! I CAN'T wait till she gets here! She is still very active and is always moving. There have been a few times that her feet go up into my ribs and it hurts to breathe for a second. She is probably getting pretty cramped in there. LOL. Alexis can tell that it is getting closer and she keeps asking me if she can hold her, bathe her, dress her, and do just about everything else when she comes :)

Sunday, January 2, 2011

We had a lot of fun up north and stayed up there until yesterday. My parents came up on Wednesday so we hung out with them, Keri, Kelly, Chad, and Nicole. We went to the movies, ate at lots of yummy places and just visited with family. We did a little bit of after Christmas shopping and found a few good things on sale :) For New Years Eve we went bowling with Chris, Summer, Justin, and Sheleen. It was a lot of fun! I beat everybody! I scored 161, which is pretty good for me. Alexis enjoyed spending time with her aunties and got to play with Aleah a couple nights as well. We slept in and stayed up late watching movies! We followed my parents home yesterday.
It is so crazy that it is now 2011! I'm excited for a New Year :) One of my good friends that I worked with at Dry Creek Family Practice had her little boy on Dec. 28. He is so cute, and makes me want Kinleigh to be here right now! Not much longer to go... I'm very excited! I have a doc appt. tomorrow.. and Alexis always gets so excited to hear the babies heartbeat :)