For Journal Purposes..

I am now 22 weeks along as of 2 days ago. I have been feeling the baby move inside for a few weeks now.. but on Tuesday when she kicked I felt it on the outside! It was an exciting moment for me :) I put my hand where she had kicked and she did it two more times :) I just wanted to hurry and post it so that I would remember.

It seems like she is the most active when I first wake up around 8 or 9.. and then later on in the evening around 6 or 7 pm. Every time I feel her move it makes me very happy!
For some reason I'm having a hard time sleeping lately and just can't seem to get comfortable. If it's already like this.. I can't imagine what sleeping will be like when I'm huge! I love, love having a belly again!

Before I found out I was pregnant the first time, with the baby I miscarried in February.. I was watching "Toddler's and Tiara's" on TLC. One of the little girls name was Kinley, and I thought it was so cute! So I told Jonathon.. and he said he actually liked it. He never likes any names I suggest. So from then on I told myself that would be the name of the next little girl. So I believe we are still set on that.. But who knows.. I guess it could always change. Alexis already calls the baby Kinley though so I'm sure we'll keep it. Now I just need to decide on a middle name. I don't know if I should use my middle name which is Ann, Jonathon mom's middle name which is Rose, or Camille (just because I think Kinley Camille is cute!) I don't know.. I guess we'll see.

There is one decision that I continue to loose sleep over.. That is where I want to have the baby. I know that anything can change at anytime during pregnancy so I can't make a for sure plan but here is what I'm up against. We are here in Monticello, so most people would assume that I would just have the baby here. BUT if I see a doctor here and deliver the baby here.. this hospital will not allow me to try to have a VBAC (Vaginal birth after Cesarean.) So I'd have to be scheduled for another c-section. The bad thing about c-sections is that a lot of doctors will tell you that you will probably only be able to have 3-4 c-sections before it starts getting to dangerous for you and your baby. I DO NOT want to be limited to the number of children I want or get to have. The good thing about delivering here is that I'm already here.. and Jonathon is only 30 mins away when he is at work.
Okay so then the other option, (if the baby doesn't decide to come really early) is that I stay up north with Kelly or Jonathon's mom the last month of my pregnancy and have my doctor that delivered Alexis, be the one that delivers this baby. The good thing about him and having the baby up there is that he said doing a VBAC is an option and that he would definitely be willing to try that. Of course with a VBAC it is never guaranteed that something won't change or come up and then I would just have to have a c-section anyways.. But if I did go into labor up there (before the induction date) and if Jonathon was at work, he would be 4 hours away. So I seriously am loosing sleep over this. I feel a lot more confident being in a bigger hospital up north. Maybe I'm just acting spoiled.. but if I can have a vaginal birth.. I would really like to try. I wish that the hospital here in Monticello would allow that. It kind of scares me that they don't. Anyways I am still seeing my Doctor up north.. And I guess I'll just have to see how things go.. I was thinking that I could maybe at least meet with a Doctor here just to see what I think. I just think it would be so dumb to have another surgery if I don't absolutely have to. Healing from a c-section is not fun. So yeah that is my dilemma.. Jonathon says I worry too much, and that even if I make a plan.. it will probably end up changing because babies decide when they are going to come not us... But I would rather have some sort of plan than just wing it.. right? I guess we'll just have to see.