I'm blessed.........

Last Wednesday, Jan. 27th I decided to take a pregnancy test while I was at work.. Yes at work....

Jonathon and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost a year and a half.. and when you are trying to get pregnant it seems like that is when you DON'T get pregnant. I would get my hopes up every month. And month after month get let down. When I decided to take the pregnancy test at work.. I was pretty much regretting wasting my money on a pregnancy test.. (which I had done so many times this last year and a half.) Earlier that morning Jonathon was talking about how we really needed to stop TRYING to get pregnant until we had insurance. In my mind I was thinking I will probably get pregnant now that he wants to wait. Jonathon has always been the one to play it smart.. and really wanted us to get ins. first. I of course did too.. But at the same time Alexis is almost four and I've been ready for another baby for 2 years. Before I took the pregnancy test I took a huge breath and basically just prayed that maybe just maybe this time it would happen..........................................
And sure enough
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We told Jonathon's family that same night.. because they happened to all be at the same place, at the same time.. Which rarely ever happens :) Everyone was so excited and happy for us!
Then I had to wait till my Mom and Dad got here on Thursday night.. (it was really hard not to call my mom right away.) We were planning on telling them in some cool way, but Alexis gave it away.. She said "Mommy is going to have a baby!" My Mom looked at her.. and almost just ignored it.. because Alexis had been saying that she wants a baby for quite a while now... My mom then looked at me, and of course I had a huge smile on my face :) My mom was very happy too! I then called and told my sister Ami the next day.. And then Chad, Kelly, and Keri came over on Friday night.. and again Alexis ran in and said "Mommy is going to have a baby in her belly!" And Kelly jumped on me :) Needless to say I think they were excited too! I haven't told really anyone else.. just because I didn't want to make a huge announcement... Even though part of me wants to stand up and scream FINALLY!!!

This last week has been surreal. I can not believe that I am actually going to have another baby.. I took so many tests that were all negative the last year and a half and to actually get a positive was just unbelievable. That is why I took 3 :) Yes I took 3 tests just to make sure.

Even though I am so so so excited that I can't barely contain it... Part of me is heartbroken for my sister Ami. She has been trying for I think around 2 or 3 years to get pregnant. She got pregnant around 5 months ago or so and then lost the baby a week after she found out. I know that that was the hardest thing that she has ever been through. I was so upset the day that I found out she lost the baby. I always always said that if I had a choice I would want Ami to get pregnant and then I get pregnant a month later... The hardest thing that I had to do was call Ami and tell her that I was pregnant, because her and I had something in common. We both were trying to get pregnant and both were disappointed every month. My sister is wonderful :) And even though I know she was sad, she said that she was very happy for me. That meant a lot to me.. Probably more than she'll ever know. I want so badly for her to get pregnant and just be happy. I know she'd make such a great mommy.. and I know that it will happen for her when the time is right.. I love my sister very much and just hope that she knows that.

Alexis is of course EXTREMELY excited.. Every morning she asks if the baby is almost here. I tell her that the baby will be in my belly for a long time, so that it can grow and get healthy. She can not wait to have a brother or sister. In every single prayer she says she prays for the baby in my belly :) She of course says she wants a brother one day.. and then a sissy the next. Jonathon wants a boy of course.. but I am just so thankful that we are having another baby.. and whatever it is I will forever be thankful to my Heavenly Father. I know I've said it... but I CANNOT believe it. It is so so surreal that I am pregnant. There are so many women in this world that get pregnant and decide to get rid of the baby.. or it's just another problem they have to deal with. I will never ever take for granted the fact that Heavenly Father has blessed me with another angel baby. And I know that Ami will be able to fill the joy that I have one day.

Anyways this is so long... But I don't do this blog for Comments or because I think that people will look on here.. I do it as a scrapbook and journal.. because I will look back at this someday.. and be thankful over and over again for all of my many blessings. I pray that everything goes good this pregnancy and that my baby is healthy.. but everything is in the Lords hands :)
Goodnight.